not sure why, i am back ... but i am. Its been 9 months since my last post, 8 months after dad's passing in Nov 2009. As i have mentioned before, my art has a tendency of predicting the future. Call it whatever you want,... i feel it is a gift, and yet this gift - does hurt after. When i am conscious and not in the moment of my work and my state of being is not involved in the reality of dream dance,... i can never forsee this messages that reaches out to me within my art. But when i am deep and absorbed in something i feel so passionate about and taken away by the flow .. the angin, I do realise that the signs i am creating,... are actually paving out - the days of what may come to be ... and
though i wish and i wish so hard that - i could read those signs ahead of time,... so that i could also undo what my vision predicts ... i guess life is not that easy.
DaD - dream a dream, was a project in April 2009, which i went full force with young people of different needs and abilities , believing that i could heal ... i could get young people to integrate - to feel included ... to be touched and affected and to provide them the joy and pleasures of bonding and belonging.
But instead of listening, what my craft was telling me,.... which was (only now i realize) was to give more attention to the first man that i love - my dad - to bond and to whom i should be focusing on helping to heal. If only i had the healing hands and power,... that i wish to believe i have through my work and art.
.... could i have saved dad?
now,....i am back .. .and attempting to be back again on my blog, and so i will begin this year 2010 in AUGUST. flying running through , so that i can chase after the lost ....
and hopefully,... in this fast ride,... i can capture some prediction, of how I could bring that lost, back to life,..... by allowing my self to let go, but yet cherishing his memory ...
I miss you dad. I dedicate my work and passion in loving memory of you. (Al-Fatihah)
pictures by Phin Oswald
It has taken me this long ............... welcome back aida!!!